nowadays keep on raining aiks....since sat till today neh><

those day make me cnt really sleep well in the middle of the night...

becoz of cold weather.....

i not scare of cold weather actually....

i used with the air conditional in my room d....

tatz y almost everynite i will wake up because difficult to breath T^T...

long time i never felt tiz since the day i came to college...

coz no air cond...

no ice water....

its make me feel better and better....

even can run up to 3rd floor...

but since tat day telematch....

tat day oso raining day~

when i play the game till half way ,suddenly i found hard to breath...

arrg~~ attack again and again...

i kept quiet and go to aside and sit down....take a deep deep breath after a few minute it return to normal d...

huh~

scare......

had been attack for the 4th time d....

damn scare....

now everynite i find it hard t sleep jz because i cnt breath......

argggg~

why lah...why is me?? i dowan lah~

the most concern thing which is my studies~

woots~ i not really like study actually...but since im in this college i force to study...

i think there is nobody like to study everyday..except the abnormal want.....

my roommate was the abnormal wan..

she really like to study~

i never ever see she playing game...her life is studying...

im quite worry her condition tat did relax....

put too much stress......

i had flu after cum bac from the night market...

so dizzy and blur..which i cnt concentrate anymore~

听着听着。。又想起你了~

你好吗？你最近怎样？？

两年前的离开，却造成一辈子的遗憾。。。

你让我更加的懂得珍惜~~

珍惜~

珍惜我现在拥有的一切一切。。。

我真的舍不得~

可惜时间真的会不去了~

能让我抱你吗？？ 最后一次也好。。。

那时我会慢慢的放开你~

可以吗？

我看是花心~

但我很确定的是。。

我真的真的喜欢过你~

喜欢你的一切~

喜欢我们一起的日子。。。

如果回到过去我肯不会想以前那样。。

我会珍惜。。

听着听着。。又想起你了~

你好吗？你最近怎样？？

两年前的离开，却造成一辈子的遗憾。。。

你让我更加的懂得珍惜~~

珍惜~

珍惜我现在拥有的一切一切。。。

我真的舍不得~

可惜时间真的会不去了~

能让我抱你吗？？ 最后一次也好。。。

那时我会慢慢的放开你~

可以吗？

我看是花心~

但我很确定的是。。

我真的真的喜欢过你~

喜欢你的一切~

喜欢我们一起的日子。。。

如果回到过去我肯不会想以前那样。。

我会珍惜。。

Had been few days,

Erm should said as few weeks I never update my blog since the day that I enter nursing college…..

Hahahah~ nursing~~

Which I nvr nvr though that I will involve myself in this field….

First of the day which I came in,I jz play play with it…

But now? No more….

I found my interest in this professional …

Cool man….

I feel so happy to study in medical field which I can know more about the illness and what action should I take to prevent the illness……for now I still duno…

But mayb afterward I will noe…..

My semester have 51 people…tutor said it’s a huge group of us study…

Hahahaha….

Plus I know many friends here…good or bad…they are still my friends….

we come from different place…I came from butterworth…..another from kulim kedah which more closer with me….and the similarity of us is,’’ we doesn’t mix with our roommate’’

hahahah..wat a funny things in world…..

roommate?? Huh~ headache when saw this word…

I can close with other friend but not my roommate…

She older than me..same age with my sister….

I duno why I cnnt communicate with her at all…..

Communicate is important….but I dun think so is for us….

My room jz like library ….can imagine it????????

We seldom talk……

Although we talk,I will jz answer he by replaying ‘’en ,ar,oo,’’

Study is good,but not alwaz…….

Clean habit is good but not too over…

Bath for more than one hour….

Keep on blab la bla at beside me…

Then keep on asking I go friend’s room for wat….

Talking??

Why alwaz talking?

Got so many things to talk?

Just go kepo kepo nia lah?

There is many things cn share since we come from different place……

So whatever thing we wan to talk we will jz voice out..and no matter wat we will still laugh laugh laugh~~

But once back to own room..everything had change…

I think if I still like this after 3years I don think I will not normal anymore…

I will ki siao…~~

confident???

what is confident actually???

people said that we should have confident with the things that we done...

BUT,

im lack of confident...

i don't know either i can do well in my college life or not.....

i started to worried...

ONE of my friend said that i should have confident with myself...

i can do it...

i feel so stress...

before i going to sleep,i start to think ''omg~~ what should i do''

''omg~ how if my exam fail''

that make me trouble....

i feel so stress...

actually nobody can help me to settle this things all....

but i also cnt help myself...

how if go there don't have any friends??

that already out of my control....

i shall control up my emotion....

i want to get good result...

i dowan to live like a zombie anymore...

dun care anything.....

i wish to done everything well in the rest of my life....

i don't want to let people feel that im useless anymore...

i never voice out ,i never take action it does not mean that im useless...

i just don't want to let myself so busy...

i need PEACE....

PEACE will bring joy to me...

i NEED PEACE

给你的信~

永远的朋友~

你永远住在我心。。

永远永远的~

2009年的8月16日

一个我永远永远无法忘记的日子。。

一个让我感到很痛很痛的日子。。

一个让我痛哭的日子。。

你的离开让我不懂要怎样面对。。。

当时我开市逃避了。。。

逃避一切与你有关的事。。。

你的离开好像是昨天发生那个样子。。。

记忆犹新。。。

每逢新年我就会莫名的开始你了。。。

回去那个寺庙。。。

仿佛好像回到过去一样。。

去年新年时我更天真的想说，‘如果我回去那里，我们像以前那个样子吗，你会出现吗？？’

怎么啦？？

你不跟我玩了吗？？

以前我去你家时，你都会笑咪咪的开门。。

现在呢？

只剩下你的妈妈罢了。。。

你好狠。。。

如果你没离开我们会是怎样呢？

我开始不懂了。。

我真的真的很想你。。。

你知道吗？？

两年应该可以慢慢的适应了吧。。。

但是我真的没有那个勇气去接受一切。。。

我没办法做到。。

我还很记得的记得你的样子。。。

最后一面的样子。。。

躺在那里一动也不动。。。

心痛极了。。。

你无法了解吧。。。

我的心情~

每次当你妈妈告诉我要听话时，

为什么我总是能感受到她的伤心的感觉？？

为什么我总是到了那里但是我鼓不起勇气踏进里面呢？

因为我怕~

我真的真的很怕。。。

怕看见你的照片，

你的灵位。。

让我眼泪不禁的落下~

你应该觉得我很胆小吧。。。

别笑我哦。。

也别生气。。。

你也应该收到我很多的信吧。。

但是，

为什么你没有回我呢？

我还在等你的信。。。

时间让我更加的思念你。。

思念你的一切。。

你永远都会住在我的心。。。

我答应你，

等我有空我一定会鼓起勇气去祭拜你。。

买你爱吃的东西。~

最后，

佳佳~

我真的很想你。。。

可以再让我看你最后一次吗？？？